July 7, 2013
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INSIDE OUTSIDE & BEYOND
I enter the room quietly and take a seat. Taking a deep breath, I consciously release the stress energy that wants to attach to my thoughts. I look around the room then let my eyes travel up to the windows that encircle the room. The blue glass looks like waves and has a calming effect. I take more deep breaths and listen to how much smoother my inhale and exhales become. My eyes close and I let go.
INSIDE: My universe pulses in different colors, and images appear from thoughts. Some images appear and my meditating mind is amused as I turn those nagging little thought blurbs into passing clouds. I use to watch the clouds as they went by. Actually counted them back in the day when I thought I couldn't quiet my mind. Now I know that my mind is happy to let them go if I'm willing to move on. I am sooooooooooo willing. Living with the knowledge that I can create drama in my head that bursts forward into my life is a serious responsibility. Many choose to not step into that responsibility as it might be too painful to walk in what you've created long enough to know and LEARN from the experience. Call me a quick learner, but you'd be wrong. It has taken a lifetime to perfect my journey and I'm still on the path.
OUTSIDE: I laugh at myself more these days. I don't hate being among people as I know where the exits are and most of them can be reached with four words politely stated. "I've got to go." I speak less and listen more. I let nature be a mother to me. She'll show you a hummingbird up close and personal. She'll offer up dewdrops in sunlight. She'll...I could go on and on, but you get it or not. (you get it, right?) I enjoy people who want to go beyond the weather report, but I do understand that even the weather is an opening for connections. What unfolds beyond the weather is your indicator of what's to come. I do not want to control anyone nor them controlling me, so I live on a level playing field. I happily remind those who try.
BEYOND: Making connections is part of our human experience. My two cents worth? Find what help you release and restore. Surrender to the experience and let it show you the way. Everything else starts falling into place. Let the amazement begin!
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Comments (14)
Facebook is a place where you never talk about anything in depth. Just like "How's the weather/" and go on. Xanga has been a place where we can connect with people on a different level. I am having a quiet afternoon today, which is good, because we have had loads of visitors the last 2 days. I will miss you if Xanga doesn't make it.
@ata_grandma - Thank you. I will always write. Keeps my mind uncluttered or maybe more willing to live with the clutter and surround it in love? ha ha. Enjoy your "off time" and let it be exactly what you need. HUGS!
is it panic attacks?
This is a wonderful post... I have always seen you as calm person, in touch with yourself and very balanced. I feel more peaceful just visiting your Xanga. Are you pledging and planning to stay for 2.0? Have you started a blog else where? I understand many of the feelings you are describing. I've been there -- and the past few years there has been a great deal of stress in my head because of things at work. This stress has bled over into my personal space, my focus, my ability to write, create etc. Tomorrow I start a new job. I made the decision to take control of my own environment - to do what is best for me. It's hard. I've worked there a long time but I'm sure I will be more at peace and that will help me travel my own path - instead of being pulled along by external forces. peace & hugs
@peacenow - Good luck with your new job!
@Jaynebug - Sometimes, when I get really stressed out, I'll listen to some calming music. About 2 months ago, some of my friends online stressed me out so bad about them not having a boyfriend/girlfriend in months (heaven forbid), I had to go listen to some Enya. LOL! I kid you not. I've lived through much worse in my life over the last few years and more, that being in a relationship is the least of my problems. I've been single for the last 7 years and I know, that I can go another 7 years or so being single.Anyway, if I'm not venting about my problems, I'm listening to music or watching TV. Most people I know in real life go out to drink it, smoke it, and/dope it just so they don't have to feel their stress. It's a shame, when you really think about it. I think I'm going to try looking at some more home remedies for stress. Well, if you ever get really stressed, try listening to some Enya. Her music is very soothing.
@Texasjillcarmel - No. I have many jobs, and deadlines and children, and more on m plate. Sometimes the stress gets to heavy to carry. I'm thankful for meditation.
@peacenow - I will move into the 2.0 if all goes right. New job? Great! Best of luck to YOU! When one door shuts, another will open.
@RealistMe - Her music IS nice. Thank you. I feel fresh and rested after meditating for 20 minutes. It's wonderful to have a place to gather new peace,
@Jaynebug - Yeah, I know what you mean.
@RealistMe - Thank you ... I listen to calming music too. It helps some. peace always@Jaynebug - Perhaps I'll be here, too. I'm still debating - but we know there is no place like Xanga. Thank you, lady. Take care. peace always
@peacenow - You're welcome.
I love it when a hummingbird comes up close. I'm also finding peace taking time to breathe, listening and in being open with others...it helps us grow.
@dorydabomb - (pats heart, and points to you) "You got it!"